Campin’ Chronicles | Camp Dick, Colorado

On June 22, 2018, two of my coworkers, plus their dogs, and I made our way up to the mountains, in order to engage in some all natural therapy for several days.
Camping in the Summer is an activity that is supremely popular in Colorado, so we decided to jump on the bangwagon and get campin’.

I have not been camping in a little bit, so this camping trip served as an excellent way to dip my toes back in the water.

As a kid, my parents took my brother and I camping pretty regularly. But, as I grew older, the camping trips became much more of a rare occassion.
Throughout my high school and collegiate careers, I went camping at least once or twice a year, but still it did not compare to the number of camping trips that I went on as a child. Plus, these camping trips tended to get more *wild,* as they were unsupervised, only consisting of a group of high school-aged kids, or college kids, who did everything but be responsible.
Let us just say that those camping trips consisted of a surplus of low-grade vodka, usually Burnetts, UV, or McCormicks, and a bunch of 30-racks of Rolling Rock or Natty Ice.
But, what better place to celebrate being reckless, or engage in underage drinking, than in the wild, with views that extend 360 degrees? Might as well be irresponsible, in nature, where the views are endless and breathtaking. Plus, the sudden rise in elevation guaranteed that at least one person would end up either peeing themselves, “blacked out,” or passed out somewhere in the woods, or in someone’s car.

This camping trip was the first one of the Summer! My friends, their dogs, and myself made our way to Peaceful Valley, Colorado, to a campsite named “Camp Dick.” The campsite was completely full and occupied with eager campers and families.

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Our campsite was located in the middle of Camp Dick, so we had some pretty great views! The campsite was located in a valley that was completely covered in green, lush trees, almost making it seem as if we were in a forest!
While Sunday, June, 24, was a fairly cloudy and rainy day, Friday and Saturday were some of the sunniest and warmest days ever! Even in the middle of the mountains, where the temperatures are supposedly cooler than in Boulder, Colorado, I found myself sweating and complaining about being “too hot,” or “way too warm.”
Camp Dick had a lot more to offer than we even expected, including a beautiful creek, or river, that ran through the entire campsite! Beyond the creek, one could find infinite amounts of trees and forestry until the eye could extend.
It was incredibly calming to be completely surrounded by nature, or to be isolated from “the real world.” The sounds of nature and the simplicity of nature serve as some of my most favorite anti-anxiety agents! Processed with VSCO with c1 presetIMG_2958
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The main source of entertainment, minus spending time in nature, attempting to start a camp fire, and making friends with 5-years-olds, was definitely the dogs that decided to accompany us on our trip!
My coworkers have own of the cutest dogs, or best friends, ever!!
Seeing them in the wild, or in their element outside of doggy day care, was extremely comical and AWESOME.
This weekend solidified my place as reigning godmother to both of these beautiful, eccentric dogs who continue to fill my life with love, happiness, and barking.
Harlee Jo, a red heeler australian cattle dog puppy, is currently five months old, and is one of my favorite playmates ever! She is the definition of a puppy and still does have a lot to learn, however, she is the most fun puppy ever known to man! Not to mention, she is one of the most unique and breathtaking puppies I have ever set eyes on. Harlee is seriously one of the prettiest cattle dogs that I have ever layed eyes on and I am completely obsessed with her. There is never a dull moment with Harlee Jo!
Minnie, a chiwuini, is a little over one-years-old, but do not let her extremely small body fool you! She has the biggest personality ever known to man and a very expressive soul, existence, and face! Minnie resembles a character from a Disney/Pixar movie, and I think that she is so incredibly animated. She is one of the most loving and sassy girls I know!

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How have you been spending your Summer nights? Have you gone camping this summer?

xo,

Aichan Tewahade

Life Hack #32 – Music Often

I know that word on the street is that math is the universal language, but I would care to argue that music is also a universal language.

The greatest part about music is that there is an excess amount of music available for individuals worldwide to access and to enjoy. Similarly, there is always new music being produced and being made available daily for listeners to indulge in.

There is certainly no shortage of music in our world. But, sometimes there just does not seem to be enough.

Music provides a lot for individuals, including providing entertainment, providing noise, providing a coping mechanism, providing distractions, providing an opportunity to create, explore, and enjoy, etc. Music is a universal language in the sense that music is incorporated into cultures everywhere worldwide, as it is a way for individuals of different cultures to express themselves and get in touch with their creative side. Music can also serve as a

Music also has the incredibly powerful ability to unify individuals across the world, which not many things can possibly do. Music has the ability to bring individuals together, especially for those who may share similar taste in music, or for for those who enjoy the same artist, band, DJ, etc. Just by the power of music, people of different cultures, or even oppositional cultures, could find themselves coming together for a unified cause; to enjoy music. The power of music is so incredible that it even is able to unify strangers from across the world, just because individuals may enjoy the same band, artist, or song. That is saying a lot more than many political treaties that have come forth, in the attempts to unify, or attempt to bring peace, into two warring nations.

Another universal aspect of music is that people in cultures every way enjoy music, regardless of the genre. Each culture’s music is influenced by other cultures, their music, etc., so they all sound different and are unique to each culture.

What is incredibly awespiring about music is its’ ability to relate and to speak to individuals. A song, a band, or the beat of a song can have the ability to truly move someone. In fact, a song, an album, a band, etc. can be a source of refuge for those struggling with the hardships of life. It is extremely comforting to find a song that completely describes your current life situation, your mindset, etc. These songs that you can personally relate to, based on experiences, allow you to relate with your emotions with another person. Sometimes, you may find yourself completely misunderstood and find yourself struggling to relate with others around you about the situations you are currently dealing with.
When humans cannot seem to provide you the escape and comfort that you need, you can always count on music.

Music is a powerful force, as a result it has many powerful benefits to listening to it. According to past studies, listening to music that you enjoy that your brain releases dopamine, which has the ability to assist in positively affecting your mood. Music can therefore assist in the regulation of one’s mood, all while creating happiness in one’s daily life.

For those work-out junkies, what is a good workout without some good music running, hiking, or even eliptical-ing, behind you? It is not a work-out that is for sure. Studies have shown that music has the potential to boost aerobic exercise, boost mental and physical stimulation, and increase overall physical performance.

Similarly, music has the ability to decrease stress and decrease anxiety, especially music with a slow-tempo, lo-pitch, and little vocals. Listening to this calm, slow-tempo music has also been found to help those suffering from insomnia. In the study, individuals suffering with insomnia were able to fall asleep with calm, slow-tempo music playing in the background.

I enjoy many types of music. I cannot say that I truly enjoy one single genre of music over the other one, as I enjoy listening to music of all types of genres, sub-genres, and of different influences. It is truly facisnating to explore different cultures music, and it never makes for a boring day. I come across brand new music multiple times every day! Similarly, I listen to a wide variety of music every day. I can listen to anything from classical music to techno music to hip-hop/rap music to electronic music to funk in an entire day, which leaves me not enough memory or storage on my laptop to explore and uncover musical hidden gems.
Growing up, I played classical piano, somewhat competitively, for ten years, which only expanded my passion for music.
All I can say is that I like something with a good beat, or “anything that is good.”

The genre that I dislike has to be country music, as I never was exposed to it growing up and never found myself going crazy for country music. It just happens to not be my glass of wine, or my cup of tea.

Discovering new music has been made much easier and much more accessible for our society, as we have things such as YouTube, Soundcloud, Spotify, etc. that allow you to discover music of all different genres at the tip of your fingers. It is incredible how much new music you can find when you are mindlessly clicking on any of these music discovery platforms. All of a sudden my library of music suddenly expands by 30 songs, just simply by exploring and discovering new music on these various music platforms.

Below is a playlist of new songs that I recently discovered and have found myself enjoying to the fullest:
(You can find all these songs on SoundCloud)

Fa-la-la Playlist

  1. I Want You Back – Jackson 5
  2. Bones (feat. Tilli) – StéLouse
  3. Fuck Your Money – ELOHIM
  4. RØMANS – Happy Love (SAINT WKND Remix)
  5. Gettin’ Jiggy Wit It – Will Smith
  6. Manila Killa – Youth (Feat. Satica)
  7. BTFU (Mommy Issues) – Mark Johns
  8. Silence (feat. Khliad) – Marshmello
  9. Call On Me (Ryan Riback Remix) – Starley
  10. Lift Yourself – Kanye West
  11. I’m God – Clams Casino
  12. Play Catch – Rockwell Knuckles
  13. Wet Dreamz – J. Cole
  14. Dysfunctional – Tech N9ne
  15. Colours (Xaphoon Jones Remix)
  16. Sick Of Love (Blush Remix) – Lucian
  17. I Fall Apart – Post Malone

Do not let the beautiful gift and sound of music go to waste.
What are your favorite songs? What is your favorite part about music?

Bump your sick beats and blast your headphones so the guy next door can hear. Discover the beats, then share the beats with the world!

xo,

Aichan Tewahade

Life Hack #31 – Take A Walk In Someone Else’s Shoes

Our society is driven by the value of self-preservation, or looking out for oneself, and while this is very important, it is just as important to take care of those around you.

Our lives are distracting, busy and stressful and it is easy to forget to consider the feelings of others amidst your own life. This does not make you a bad person at all, as we are all guilty of being selfish and putting ourselves ahead of others. It is incredibly important to always be taking care of yourself, but part of taking care of yourself involves taking care of those around you, whether they are loved ones or strangers.

Everyone’s feelings, realities, circumstances, struggles, etc. are all valid and it feels good to have these things acknowledged by others.

You never know what someone is going through – you have probably heard this phrase before. You have probably also heard that you should treat others how you would like to be treated. Both these phrases are extremely pertinent in understanding and recognizing the importance of understanding and being compassionate towards others around you.

It is not always easy to take others feelings into account, or what they may be going through. This is especially the case when I find myself irritated with someone, as I often only take into consideration my own hurt feelings into account. More often than not, I find myself directly placing blame on things, people, circumstances, etc. for things that are not directly their faults. Sometimes, it may even seem as if I am not capable of attempting to understand why things have happened and the role that I have played in the situation, circumstance, tussle, etc. that may be occupying my busy brain.

Most commonly, when I am experiencing a case of “being butthurt,” or being #offended by a situation, I do not ever take a walk in other people’s shoes. When my feelings are hurt, I never think about what I may have done to contribute to contribute to my feelings being hurt. I find myself holding my feelings above others, but rarely bother to take account other’s feelings, circumstances, etc. Often, people may act out, or out of character, as a result of circumstances within their own life. This is called displacement of anger, and individuals often do this because they are dealing with unresolved hardships within their lives. It is important to realize that we all act and react differently towards life. While it is easy to pass judgement, or act rude towards others, because you may not agree with someone about something, this kind of attitude and reaction will not get you anywhere, or very far.

When was the last time that someone acknowledged and validated your feelings? I truly hope that it was not too long ago. Our society lacks compassion and empathy towards others, and the struggles they may be facing. It is an incredibly amazing feeling to feel acknowledged, validated, and loved, especially by others. It is not every day that someone is willing to look past the ugly, accept and celebrate you, and show compassion, love and empathy towards the misfortunes, or hardships, that you may be facing.

Everyone needs and deserves a good friend such as this, that is simply willing to attempt to understand you, your reactions, your decisions, essentially your entire being, and love you regardless.

Whether you decide to simply just be a shoulder to cry on, or an ear that they can confide in, embrace others and try to be a friend to them.

Every single person that inhabits this Earth is struggling, in some form or another. We all mask our troubles differently, but in way or another. It is easy to forget this, as we often are blinded by our own struggles.

I do not know about you, but sometimes I get bored of addressing my own reality and my own hurdles that I need to jump, that it is refreshing to take a dip in someone else’s pool of problems.

This type of empathy, compassion, and kindness can go a long way. Beyond this, practicing being a more impartial individual, and practicing being more empathic compassionate and loving, will teach you a lot about patience, including learning to be patient with yourself and to be patient with those around you.

Yup, the world should not only revolve around you. Your world should revolve around numerous other worlds.

It is important to take care of yourself, but do not forget to take care of others, just in case, other people forget to do it. It is our civic duty to take care of other people, because no one else can take care of people the way that other people can.

xo,

Aichan Tewahade

A Doggin’ Good Time

Woof, woof!

Another batch of photographs of my furry friends, showcasing their animated nature and huge smiles. Their joy and their smiles are contagious. It is easy to pick up on their personalities that they naturally exude, just by glancing at their photographs.

These dogs give me life and are the real reason that I wake up with a smile on my face every day. They truly give me a purpose and make me happy, regardless of my mood that day. How can you have a bad day when a dog is constantly smiling at you, to the point that it almost seems creepy?

I am very envious of how animated these creatures are, in addition to all of their many exceptional qualities. Their faces could light up an entire room.

Enjoy a gallery of my beautiful friends having a doggin’ good time Paw Prints on Google Android 9.0 Preview

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A dog’s face and body language says everything about how they are feeling, all while showcasing their unique personalities. It is wonderful to be able to see their personalities come to life with the assistance of a camera. I must say that these furry friends are not camera shy, as they sure know their angles.

Their genuine emotions always shine through, as they truly have nothing but room for love in their hearts ♥

Paw Prints on Microsoft  A happy dog equals a happy life  Paw Prints on Microsoft

xo,

Aichan Tewahade

 

May Your Mental Health Be With

In order to commemorate Mental Health Awareness Month, I decided to address mental health and all the controversies surrounding it.

“You are so crazy” is a phrase that has been repeated about me, especially after my discovering my psychiatric diagnoses.

“Are you sure this girl is NOT bipolar or schizophrenic?”

“You are completely irrational.”

May is a very important month for me, as it marks mental health awareness month. As a person who struggles with mental health issues, as it may be one of my biggest problems, I find that bringing awareness to the universal health issue and speaking freely about mental health combats the stigma behind mental health issues.

While mental health issues are prevalent worldwide, our society seems to have managed to continue to make it difficult for individuals to seek help, get diagnosed, and share their diagnoses openly. In my experience, talking about mental health issues, specifically my diagnosis, automatically makes others feel uncomfortable, as they slowly begin treating me differently. My mental health diagnosis literally has resulted in numerous friendships ending, which did not surprise me, as I have been informed by a variety of people, including professional doctors, old friends, strangers, etc., that I am “too much to handle.”

To break the ice, my diagnosis is complex PTSD, which I have been dealing with since childhood, six types of ADD and ADHD, both of which I have dealth with my whole life, OCD, social anxiety, panic disorder, generalized anxiety, and phobias. I am a fairly well-rounded individual.

The two specific diagnoses that tend to steer people away from me are my complex PTSD and my panic disorder.

While every “disorder” that I have been inflicted with is “very extreme,” I have managed to be fairly successful and functional when performing the task that I call life. I cannot imagine being the person I am without these diagnoses and the symptoms that accompany it. I may not be pleased with certain qualities about myself, as a result of one of my handful of disorders, but I can say without a doubt that if I had never been labeled with these disorders professionally, I would feel a lot better about the way that I react and act.

Once an individual gets diagnosed, it is super common for an individual to be confined and defined by the disorder. You are more than a label, and the symptoms you experience are just as a result of your unique brain chemistry. It may seem that your mental disorder(s) are holding you back, but this is not the case, unless you allow it to. Working around your symptoms is important, as it is vital to learn to find coping mechanisms and ways to continue living the functional life that you are capable of living.

People may attempt to belittle you by using your mental health as the theme of their belittling. This has occurred to me more often than not, and I would define this as the most commonly used blow, in order to attempt to bring me down, or fill me with self-doubt.

The stigmas surrounding mental illness are prominent, as we have not transitioned into a accepting society. The stigmas instill embarrassment, and the most common instillation is shame. These stigmas that we have enforced into our society have left people feeling afraid of seeking proper help and of disclosing honest information about the state of your mental health.

While our country advertises the importance of seeking help and the praises the courage of the individual for seeking help, there are many factors involved in seeking professional help that contradict this statement.

Seeking professional help and care is extremely expensive, even with the assistance of health insurance. Committing to a treatment plan is painful these days, as I begin to wonder if my mental health is worth the large investment that I know I will have to make.

Participation in treatment is a long process, and often requires a lifelong commitment.

With my particular situation, with more disorders than you can count on one hand and that I can remember, receiving a proper diagnosis and a correct diagnosis cost around $3,000. With a proper diagnosis, which can take many sessions, you can continue to move forward with depleting your bank account, as purchasing a monthly medication prescription adds up very quickly, even with insurance. My medication, without any health insurance, came out to the grand total of $2,000 a month. Depending on the severity of your symptoms and whether the medication is covered by insurance, the cost of your medication can fluctuate.

While professionals are very qualified, they are capable of making mistakes, as the wrong medication, or a medication that does not help you, could be prescribed to you. With my situation in particular, the variety of disorders and the severity of my symptoms led to large amounts of cash being wasted on medications that do not assist me. Medication is very expensive, regardless, once again reaffirming how difficult it is for individuals to seek help.

All these factors play a huge role in discouraging acting on seeking help.

The financial and lifelong burdens of being inflicted with these mental disorders are enormous.

Stigmas behind getting diagnosed and seeking help are completely negative. Stigmas are powerful and have the ability to control and define individuals, as a result of how much society capitalizes it. Similarly, our society loves to shame those inflicted with a “disability,” which is what those inflicted with mental disorders are defined as. In addition, the attaching the words “disorder” and “illness” to describe , or otherwise label, one’s mental health only implies negative emotions towards the situation.

While we have made headway in the acceptance of those who may suffer from mental health complications, “more major illnesses,” such as bipolar, schizophrenia, and PTSD, are the most stigmatized mental disorders out there. The complexity of these disorders make individuals discouraged about learning about them, let along attempting to understand them. I will admit that even I have a very big struggle attempting to conceptualize and understand what I am feeling and how these symptoms effect me, all while attempting to control these symptoms, in order to live a comfortable life. Stigmas often to lead a world of problems that bloom, as a result of the negative connotation associated with mental health disorders. You are not sick if you have possessed a proper diagnosis! These negative terms are half the problem. The other half of the problem is that individuals often feel too ashamed, or afraid of judgement by others, to disclose to others what they have been diagnosed with. It is incredible how quickly people are willing to figuratively “swipe left,” and not even give those struggling with mental illness a chance. Not openly speaking out about mental health and your own situation only strengthens the falsified idea that mental illness is something to be ashamed of.

Even at 2018, I have found it quite surprising how little individuals speak out about their mental health. Fortunately, with my ADHD and my six types of ADD, I love talking non-stop and forget to consider how uncomfortable these topics make people. However, I have found that living in secrecy is dumb, plus, I love to complain, or talk about my life. My mental health and the obstacles I face with controlling my symptoms is such a big part of my life, and there is never a moment that I do not think about it.

Okay, I am exaggerating. On a good day, I can not think about my professional diagnosis for only about five minutes maximum. Even when I am asleep, my PTSD manages to creep its way into my dreams.

I guess from first glance strangers would not correlate myself with the diagnosis that I have. Most often, when disclosing the PTSD part of my diagnosis, people tend to shut down, give me a look of pity, and engage in attempting to understand how someone with PTSD appears to live a fairly normal life, without avoiding responsibilities.

Speaking up about mental illness, in particular PTSD, openly has helped me more than I expected, though I was not pleased with the outcome.

Recently, I was in an Uber and hit a standstill with my treatment process and being able to control my symptoms. For some reason, I could not resist making a “trauma/trigger joke,” and the Uber driver ironically goes, “PTSD, much?” My reaction was so happy, as I disclosed that I actually did have PTSD. After sharing this information, I immediately realized how uncomfortable this could make a stranger feel. Regardless, the Uber driver also had been diagnosed with complex PTSD, too, so the comment slowly began to lose its awkwardness. This young man gave me amazing advice about how he combatted his symptoms and spoke with me about what PTSD felt like, which we both concluded felt like “a an on-going, loud war within your brain.”

We jinxed each other, when we both attempted to decide how to describe living with PTSD. He did not get me a soda, but he did give me some hope and some coping mechanism skills to try when my thoughts begin racing with trauma that I have experienced.

I love complaining about my symptoms sometimes….Nope, just kidding, I love making jokes about my mental conditions in order to attempt to take the stigma out of the disorder. I have the PTSD jokes down. While I am enduring one of my major panic attacks that can last for up to 24 hours, with a side of flashbacks, nightmares, racing thoughts, and reliving trauma, I tend to have time to think about great jokes as I am living the experience. This applies to all of my mental disorders, including ADD, ADHD, OCD, and social anxiety.


Here are some of my best jokes to throw around:

1. “There is no amount of adderall or vyvanse that could possibly make me do anything.”

2. “I am not procrastinating, I just have to clean because I have OCD.”

3. “Having PTSD is exciting, because you never know when you are going to be triggered.”

4. “Everyone hates you when you have ADHD.”

5. “Be prepared to be PTSD-ed.”

6. “If I tell you that I have PTSD, will I give me a break?”

8. “When you are inflicted with PTSD as a child, you are allowed to have low-energy levels, because you have been fighting a war since ‘nam.”

9. “PTSD taught me how to deal with myself, as I am forced to hang out with myself because I am too afraid and triggered by other people.”

10. “Don’t call me traumatic, I have PTSD.”

11. “Hi, my name is Aichan and ADHD is my game.”

12. “If you are looking away to get a quick, dramatic response from me, try messing up my daily routine, triggering me, or assigning any kind of homework that contains a headline.”

13. “I can’t tell if I hate having ADHD more, or if I hate going to class more.”

14. “I do not have social anxiety, I just hate new people.”

15. “Do not trust anyone, because everyone is your enemy. I got trust issues #PTSD”

16. “Harry Potter and I have a lot in common, mostly his PTSD.”

17. “Just call me the ADHD bunny, not the energizer bunny.”

18. “What is OCD if you do not color-code your notes and re-write them perfectly?”

19. “Yes, you are allowed to drink my water, but I would rather have you drink your own water.”

20. “I blame my PTSD for not ever letting a grudge go, because I can never forget it thanks to my nightmares and flashbacks.”

21. “My favorite hobbies, include “anxiety-ing,” organizing and re-organizing my studio apartment, spending 12 hours deep cleaning my apartment, doing the same stuff everyday, procrastinating, looking like I may poop myself when I am simply just panicking, TALKING, TALKING, TALKING, and trying to utilize positive coping mechanism skills.”



I still struggle with acceptance and loving my diagnoses, despite the challenges that come with it. The greatest part about my unique, extensive and almost unbelievable diagnosis is that no one will ever meet anyone like me. I am an acquired taste, with a brain that never rests and always working. While things can get hard and I can get salty, I know that there are many benefits that came out of having to live with the symptoms.

I do not know what the big secret is. Is it your mental diagnosis?

If it is, stop keeping the secret and spill the beans already.

If you do not even know what the big secret is, then you are missing out completely and you need to get familiar and educated. Finding out your biggest secret, otherwise known as your mental health diagnosis, is the best Christmas gift that you could ever receive.

The longer you wait to get yourself this present, the harder you are making things for yourself.

A lot more people have received their best Christmas present, and you would be surprised how many people receive treatment, attend therapy, and engage in medication intake.

Secrets do not make friends, so open your mouth and spread the word. The more you are willing to address and acknowledge the “so called illness,” the less power that it will have over you.

Mental health is a very important part about living a full and happy life. While mental illness is very prominent, access to these outlets for treatment, help, etc. is limited and does not allow for many individuals to truly follow through and work on their mental health.

If you are struggling to control your symptoms, try to remind yourself that your brain is a muscle, and therefore, it can be trained, or rewired, to react differently towards situations, control your stream of thoughts from unfolding, etc.

Speaking out about mental health openly should be allowed ALWAYS. What are your personal experiences with mental health? Have you ever sought professional help?

If you are struggling, lost, or just bored, give my friend therapy a try. I haven’t hung out with my therapist and my psychiatrist since ‘nam, but I would recommend therapy to everyone, as it is nice to have someone you can trust to talk to about ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. You can even use your session to complain mindlessly, and they must listen to you. For someone that loves talking and cannot seem to shut my trap, therapy is my best friend.

Finding a proper therapist, or team of specialists, that are willing to work with you and are a good fit is a process, which may take a long time, or it may take a very short period of time. The key is finding people who you can be comfortable with, and if things do not work out, try again and look for other specialists.
Becoming comfortable with your team of specialists is also a process, as not everyone is meant to work together.
I have faced rejection from many doctors, who have said that my diagnoses are “too extensive” and that “it would require more energy and time to work with me than they would like.” My first psychiatrist and therapist admitted to me that when he found out my diagnoses, he was “VERY HESISTANT TO TAKE ME ON AS A PATIENT.” In fact, he disclosed that after meeting me he “DID NOT WANT TO TAKE ME ON AS A PATIENT, BECAUSE I WAS TOO COMPLICATED.” I have heard these kind of statements from a wide-variety of individuals, which has made the hunt for a specialists incredibly difficult. At times, it has been completely discouraging and these statements have stuck with me since I heard them.
While there has been negative aspects, or hardships, seeking and finding my “perfect team,” I know how healing having this kind of support can do for someone’s mental health, for their overall well-being, and for their overall sense of confidence.
Finding outlets where you can express yourself freely and talk honestly about things that you may not otherwise address is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. By speaking and being open about your life, not only can you receive advice, but you can also begin to work on getting to know yourself, getting to know the things you need to work on, etc. This is all much more helpful with the assistance of an outside observer that genuinely has your best interests and knows you honestly, as they can identify behaviors, reactions, thoughts, etc. that you engage in when stressed, when triggered, when anxious, when emotional, when focused, etc.
The greatest thing about therapists, or specialists in this area, is that they are not there to punish, scold, etc. you, they are there to provide a sense of safety, a sense of stability, a source that you can trust, a source that does not judge you, and a source that only wishes to help and to support you.

In reality, with my extensive diagnosis, which can be considered a “double whammy,” I am supposed to be participating in therapies, such as CBT, CPT, and exposure therapy. Similarly, my diagnoses make me more than qualified to have A TEAM OF TRAUMA SPECIALISTS to help guide me through life. In addition, a life-coach also is highly-recommended and beneficial for a young thug like me, even though I do not like listening to other people.

Let me be the LAST PERSON to admit that I NEED HELP!
THERE IS NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OF.


•SEEK HELP, UTILIZE HELP, & GIVE HELP•

 ♥♥♥♥It is #TIMETOTALK ♥♥♥♥

xo,

Aichan Tewahade